Prep Life: It Isn’t Sustainable


For years I have always wanted to compete in a bikini competition – as of May 12th, 2017 I was able to finally cross that off my bucket list. As I take a month off of prep for the next shows I have lined up this year, I have received so many compliments and encouraging word from friends and family. I cannot be any less thankful for everyone who has supported me in this. But something I want to share with everyone who has reached out to me about about weight-loss and how I did it. “I want to know what you’re doing!” “Can you share with me what you did to lose 20 pounds?!” “You did it so quickly, can you share with me how?!”

Before I prepped for my show I was consuming 1000-1200 calories a day; I was tracking my food, but didn’t have any real goals as far as fitness. I just knew that I wanted Chipotle and if I wanted Chipotle I need to track my calories in/calories out so I don’t get “fat” but eating whatever I wanted to because it fit my macros. I was just cruising through life like many of us do: workout, eat, sleep. I was unhappy though, for a really long time about my progress. Because in the back of my head, I wanted to lose 20 pounds, I wanted to feel comfortable in my skin, I was tired of being comfortable and saying “I look this way because I had kids and that’s okay” but fuck that, I was unhappy, and tired of that excuse. I weighed almost 160 pounds, but I wasn’t a “big” girl. I stacked a lot of muscle under my fluff and was 22% body fat at 5’1″. I had a love hate relationship with food.

I took 15 weeks to prep, and with prep I had a greater appreciation for food. MidwayPm-1547Competing has taught me how to manipulate food as energy (because it is) for intense workouts, it’s taught me how much I can challenge my body. It’s helped me reach goals I never though I would be able to reach. For 10-12 weeks I ate the same thing every single day, kind of – chicken/fish, broccoli/asparagus, rice/sweet potatoes with a dash of popcorn seasoning every 2-2.5 hours to keep my metabolism fueled. At this point I was eating 1600 calories a day, more calories than before; and lost 10 pounds in my first two weeks, dropped 5% body fat. I began to plateau, a feeling I was so used to for so long, so I increased my cardio. I began doing 45 minutes of cardio 3-4 times a week; somedays cardio twice a day. I loved the feeling, I was energized. I didn’t drink alcohol, couldn’t eat donuts, no fruit (yes, no fruits), no Chipotle in sight for weeks. I was ready to lose more.
As I got closer to show day, my meals became more restricted – no salt, no sugar, less carbs, hardly any fats. I became incredibly emotional, my hormones were out of whack with restricted I was with my food. I was always hungry for the next meal, but was full as I ate my food. Everyone I spoke to kept saying that shitty feeling was normal. Many ladies who end their prep indulge like crazy, and I hear horror stories of how they go so overboard that they gain so much weight back and screw up their metabolism. Indulging a little bit after the show was needed, I did it. But the next day it was back to clean eating. I’ve slowly began to reintroduce foods I used to eat that had salt, sugar, etc. so my body doesn’t know blow and that is something people have to be careful with. I ended my prep weighing 139 lbs, 13% body fat at 5’1″. The most important part of prep is the end of prep, and how to refeed your body the proper way.

MidwayPm-1548Is the prep lifestyle sustainable? No, not one bit. I am glad I met so many people who told me to remember that the body I get in prep isn’t sustainable. It’s do-able for a short amount of time but that’s why we thank off-season, eating regular balanced meals. Being on prep was a lot of emotional, and mental work but now I know what to expect so I am ready for the next one. If you are considering doing a bikini competition, trust your instincts, and listen to your body, and make sure you have an excellent support system but know it is very intensive, and takes a lot of dedication and physical work too.

Now I’m on to the next…

Midway USA Champtions May 12th, 2017 | All photos taken by: Doug Jantz Photography


Road trip: Midway USA Championships

If you have been following me on my other social media handles (Instagram or Facebook), you would know I am competing in my first bikini competition tomorrow. It’s about a 3-hour drive from where I live, and I’ve got a hotel reserved from me and the hubby in Wichita, Kansas this weekend for this eventful experience (oh dear lord, pray I don’t fuck anything up!) I’ve never been to Wichita, let alone been on a road trip alone with my husband so pray he survives my 90’s to early 2000’s playlist, my snoring, and my car sickness – my mom can vouch how much I hate car rides!

I’ve always had a great following for my health and fitness lifestyle, but I haven’t been open about my progress, and received so many kind words from my friends and family. Before spontaneously prepping for this show:

Before prep
I weighed almost 160 pounds. I was 23% body fat at 5’1″. I was incredibly unhappy, because I had spent years and years and years in the gym and staying active and these numbers didn’t change after I gave birth to my two littles. I was tired of feeling fat, being bloated, and in this plateau. At one point after having my kids, I dropped down to 11% body fat but I was still unhappy – I still felt like I didn’t achieve anything. I would also add that I was completely unhealthy in how I lost all that fat.

I took 15 weeks to prep for this show, which is about a moderate amount of time; not too long, but not short time either. I was so worried I wouldn’t reach my goals, I was worried about winning. But wait. Why was I so worried about winning?

3 days ago
I already have. Ladies and gents… It took 15 weeks for me to lose 20 pounds. It took 15 weeks for me to lose 10% body fat. It took 15 weeks for my abs to show. It took 15 weeks for me to be comfortable in my skin again. I am happy with my 15 week progress, how is that not winning? I have all these goals I reached in just 15 weeks, so why would I go into this competition, my first competition, worried about a trophy? This competition, I am going to be in the mindset that I did all this shit and I accomplish this list of goals I’ve had since I was blessed with my two children. I’ve already won. I finally pushed my body, and saw what I needed to do to get where I wanted to be versus dreaming. I did it.

My experience with prepping for this show has taught me so much, and has changed my mindset on goal-setting. People keep dreaming, wishing, and talking and hardly any of them are working, doing, and achieving! My aesthetic goals were definitely a mental challenge; I had been a different mindset when I was not on prep (stuck in my plateaued state versus prep-state), and I hope anyone who has goals they want to achieve know that nothing is impossible. The only thing stopping you from your goals is your mindset.